I love this trip. I look forward to it every time we go ...every other year.
Right now I'm on bus 1 of 3 full of middle school kids on our way to the Port Townsend parade up on the Washington peninsula. After that we will go to Port Angeles, the very north part of the peninsula, and catch a ferry to Victoria, BC.
My first of these trips was 10 years ago, just after my husband and I got engaged (oh,he started his own blog so I can now call him by his given name....Drummer Boy). Only twice has it ever been cool or rainy weather. Every other time it is warm, stunningly beautiful and sunny. This time the forecast is for the same. I LOVE weather like this it makes me feel like there are no worries in the world, especially when I'm in Victoria. If you ever get the chance to go, I highly recommend it. Just bring your passport if you want to get back in the US. Border patrol always give us a bad time.
I'll try to update through the weekend or give one big update once we are back on Tuesday. I'll take pictures to share too.

Please forgive me if there are format issues, this is my first mobile post and I can't see as much as I'm used to. : )

Prayers requested!

I could use any prayers, good mojo, whatever anyone out there beleives in and can spare.

I just lost my job today.

I was the main bread winner.

I'm still greaving and heartbroken.

To top it all off......I'm in the (less than) one week wait.

I promise, I deliver

Here is the picture I was talking about.



My girl with some of the other Sea Gal hopefulls. If you are wondeing which one..... she's the most beautiful one. ; )

eliminated.

My sweet girl didn't make the cut last night. She is setting her sights on next year. I'm sorry for her but at the same time, I might feel better about her running around with a football team next year when she is 19 almost 20 vs. 18 almost 19. I don't know what those judges are thinking, I think she is the most beautiful and the most talented. I should have been on the panel! I'll post a picture soon. I won't feel bad about doing so because they are on the news channel's website anyway and I won't point her out.

My sweet girl

I'm so freaking excited and proud! My sweet girl, my 18-year-old step-daughter, is trying out for the Seattle Seahawks cheerleaders, the SeaGals. She made it through the first round where they narrowed down from 200 to 70 girls. The 2nd round is tonight then if she makes it through, there are interviews Tuesday and/or Wednesday then a routine to learn on Friday, practice Saturday then final auditions on Sunday. I'm so nervous for her! eek.

We also did her Senior pictures on Saturday. My brother lives in ID and drove over to be the photographer. He is trying to get his photography business up and running so now he can add her pictures to his portfolio and we get free Senior photos. I can't wait to see the final product!

Ponderous

Every time I go to Wally-World there seems to be an over abundance of babies and preggos.

I can't decide if I should hang out there more often in case it is something in the environment or to stay away because it messes with my emotional state.

Just an observation I thought of sharing.

Inconceivable!

I was always the healthy one, rarely sick, never had to go see a Dr. My brother and sister were in and out of the Dr.’s offices. Not me. It was always a joke – sort of – that I got all the immune system and there was little left for my younger siblings. I was so healthy growing up that when, at the age of 20, I kept feeling a horrible pain on my right side and I finally gave in, it was the pediatrician that I went to see because that was the last Dr. I had been to.

I of course was chastised for not yet having a pelvic exam by this age and told I should be seeing a family Dr. After my ovarian cyst was diagnosed and medically confirmed that it went away on its own, I didn’t see a Dr. again until I needed birth control 3 years later.

(P.S. because of my cyst/symptoms, I was able to diagnose a friend with a cyst the same month I got mine, but roughly 8 months later her sister had a cyst burst (while on the performance floor – during competition). They both now have 2 beautiful children.)

The only thing that kept me going to a Dr. once a year was to refill my prescription.

Last year, I gave up and went to the Dr. after horrible, sharp pains kept me up at night. A slew of tests later, I was sent to the ER to prep for an appendectomy. This was my first trip ever to the ER and my first surgery aside from having my wisdom teeth out.

Afterwards, the surgeon told my husband that my appendix was very large and it was amazing I didn’t have any other symptoms (the ER doc was even able to push on my side hours before the surgery and it didn’t hurt). My surgeon commented that I must have an amazing immune system to keep the infected organ at bay for so long. I also healed from surgery amazingly quickly, with only 1 day of pain killers.

What does this have to do with anything?

My body has always run perfectly - to the point of envy by others.

Then why has it decided to betray me in my hour of need?!?

Why can’t I be normal and just get pregnant like everyone else around me!?

According to my charts, I ovulated just fine for 6 cycles then boom – nothing for 5 months (3 LONG cycles). Last month it all seemed to kick into gear again. I ovulated on CD 19. Of course, mostly because the O was a big surprise, BFN followed by AF. So I put my thermometer away. 1 year of temping was enough for me, besides my body started working again right.
Then there is this month. All signs seemed a go. I had perfect timing, all signs possible pointed to one day……3 weeks ago.

I waited and tested on 11, 13 and 15 DPO. NOTHING! Not even a glimmer or imaginary line and no sign to this day of AF. So, on 16 DPO….

Oh, I’m sorry, excuse me there was no O. Correction…CDthirty-frigin-six.

So, I picked up the thermometer again and confirmed what I thought, I never O’d in the first place, again.

Today is CD 41.

The other twist of fate….because of my emergency appendectomy (really is there any other kind, doh)… I can’t afford to go see a Dr. I’m still paying off my surgery. This begs the question…….

What the hell am I thinking?!?!

If I can’t afford to do what I need to in order to get pregnant, what business do I have trying to have a kid? Obviously I can’t afford one.

My mind is so muddled right now… must be the cold medicine. Oh, did I mention…


I’m sick.

*sigh* oh, the irony.